my boyfriend wont do me.

thats cool.

happy anniversary to me and will. one year. gosh!

too bad i got drunk and ruined it!

anyways. i made him ride bikes with me to the common to lay out in the sun and smooch. it was romantical. i loved it.

then i had the idea to get appz and scorpion bowls at 430 before dinner

we ended up drinking 3 scorpion bowlz. ummm, i was fine until we tried to find mikey! he was unfindable. we were stumbling down newbury street. some pregnant girl on a street bike asked if i needed water.

it was bad. we tried to go home but i couldnt get home cus i was too drunk and i started crying hysterically and trying to puke. will puked all over the sidewalk and i made him go get me money to get a cab home. christian and his gf walked by with their dog and asked if i was okay and i totally wasnt.

will got me a cab and told him where i lived. then i got home and was so drunk idk how i got in without hte cat getting out.
will rode his bike and my bike home. then he sat with me in the shower while i puked.

im sorry, but that totally is love. takin care of his overly retardedly drunk gf on their anniversary, what a good bby!

then he snuggled me to sleep.

we had plans to make pizza and watch a movie after drunks on the common...too bad i ruined it!

whatever. thanks baby! it was a good day. smoochin yew was romantical on the common. <3 love you.

one year is nothin for how long this will last.

me and will want to move to portland

im trying to convince other people to move to cus its cheap, laid back, artsy and fun all the time.

i wish i could get out of my lease.

if i legit get serious, i might talk to my mom.

i cannot afford to do anything here, i cant save ANY money. im used to havin 2 grand in the bank and now i have 900. thats two months of my half of the rent.


i wanna get to portland asap, even for winter! snowboarding!

monday im starting a 2 week cleanse
maybe even 3 until i lose 10-15lbs
it worked before when i was in highschool, its called the sacred heart diet
then im going to go vegan for a lil (with ww help)
and see if i can stay that way til Will's bday

i video chatted with aprylle today!

andddd

i hung out with jared and watched him play bike polo


i get to see alexis tomorrow

and ben labadie on sunday

sleeping alone tonight wont be so bad with dawsons creek in the background.

i just ate a tub of black razz ice cream


im trying to get my own life without will, it just takes some effort.

everything is going deece i guess.

i am jobless
chubby, but working out everyday and watching what i eat

but stuff is okay

money might become an issue soon!

yeaaa.
danielle you were right
im "Blah" over enget
i miss dating him. he was so fun and i was never sad when i was with him.
my mom always asks about him and stuff

i just watched the orchard hills first episode and he introduces his gf as the love of his life. lolzzz. i hate when people repeat stuff.

idk. im not over it completely cus i know that he would never cheat on me. and will did. and i left enget for will thinking that he'd be better. boy was i wrong.

once you get booze in me, i love my boo fevz.

162.
cereal and soy milk
cake
chips ( a lot, but they were light, only 80 cals per serving and i had 6 haha )
2 lean cuisine flat bread sammies

2 onion bagels with butter
Some tortilla chips
Watermelon
corn bread muffin
Some chicken tortilla cheese thing
Cake 2 inch square
2 diet cokes
I need water for the rest of the rest of the day
Its wills sisters graduation today so that means booze, mexican food, and cake so I gotta be as good as I can. Make go for a bike ride today sometime

My bike is so hott. Will got me a matching front wheel. Yay